Heaven and Hell

I don't believe in them.

See my religion teaches us that there is an afterlife, that there is past lives and a place that we goto before we become living souls again.

It also teaches us that there is a place that stores all of the souls memory after it dies called the Akashic....i think thats the word....data base, in a since. Everyone past lives are recorded and a lot of people don't realize it but the things that they have done in there past lives and current life will effect the lives of those to come. Say someone has a Weight issue, what did they do in there past life to cause it? Only hypnosis will help people discover what they have done wrong.

Children are amazing for remember things that have happened before there past life died in there conscious state. I remember reading about a little girl who was pretending that she was helping some children escape through the mountains....can't remember which ones, but come to find out that she was a renegade in a past life trying to save children from the Germans.

Children are closer linked to there souls past life when they are young and as people get older they start forgetting and parents tell kids, quit using that imagination of yours so much. But I don't think they should, they don't know if they are imagining something from there previous life.

Paganism was around long before the christian religion was even thought of, and after christianity came to play they made up heaven and hell to help scare people into believing in the religion. Im not meaning to bash the religion, it's just I believe in paganism and Wicca.

Peace out YO!

It's off....

I reevaluated my life and come to find out that I was not happy with Greg, so I broke off the engagement. It's not because of anyone else in my life or anything like that it's cause I don't feel the Love like I use to, or am suppose to when one gets asked to be married. I don't feel the spark like I use to in the past, a year ago.

Maybe this one is not meant to be, who knows but the ones involved. I told him that I would give it another try to see if anything changes. But I don't know if it will, I am trying but it's very hard to do when you still aren't happy with the position that you are in life. I guess that we will see what happens in a couple of weeks if I still feel the same as I do now.

Will I break it off? I don't know.
Where will I go if I break it off completely? Probably to my mom's house for a while.
Will I be able to financially handle? Possibly, I have been getting more hours at work because one of the delivery drivers quit so now I am on day shift working from 830-4ish everyday and they close around 530pm. I might have to get another part time job if they hire someone else and cut my hours.

Always wait to see what the future holds, I don't wanna tear apart a family but if you are not happy in a relationship then why stay tied down because of the kids. I need to look out for my happiness as well. Don't get me wrong, the time that I have spent with greg was a good one and if it's not ment to be then it's not ment to be.

Only time will tell.
Peace out, YO!

New future for everyone...

I am finally engaged, that bastard finally proposed...lol, he told me to say that.

The wedding is probably going to be sometime next summer on the seventh. Why the seventh you ask, because both of my girls were born on the seventh. Duh LOL

My New Car

Yes I finally got a new car!!!! It was an 8 hour round trip to Provo Utah to get it but I think that it is worth it.

I got a 2002 Pontiac Grand Prix with 67,000 miles on it for only 4,995.00, long story about how I got it so cheap, But there is one thing that I gotta get checked out and that I that it shimmy's at a high speed. But that can be easily fixed. And it's got an after market muffler on it so it sounds like a beast lol.

Drama Drama Drama

Why do people consistently start drama?! Why do people not believe you even though you repeatedly say that you didn't do anything?!

I have an ex that i have become good friends with over the past months, he has a fiance and a kid. His brother consistently keeps telling his fiance that i have been sending him voulger pictures and videos and whatever. I keep telling them that nothing is happening, we are just friends. And then the brothers wife decide to send my boyfriend a message with a shitload of lies and he tells me to quit talking to him....

WHY THE FUCK DO PEOPLE HAVE TO PISS ME OFF?!

Back

Sorry that it has been a while since I last posted anything, i have been busy with two lil monkeys and a boyfriend that is the biggest turd of them all.

I will be right again soon i have a lot to write about.

Lates yo!